I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is trading (sharing) a Tune of Enjoy and Formation or judgments of the pride predicated on that which you request (agree with) in the mind. There is number different way. In the Course, your head (content) is split between Lord and the vanity; and you’re picking all the time with an area as cause for effect.
Types (all points with this world) are miscreations highlighting the ego’s judgmental believed system. We’ve caused it to be up (miscreated this world) and can provide it down anytime by fixing your head (forgiveness). True prayer requires this modification of the mind as God has nothing regarding forms.
What Prayer is Perhaps not:
When you are always choosing, that which you request once you hope is what counts. Whenever you plead in prayer to possess God correct an application trouble with another type issue, you’re wondering the confidence mind for help (not God). These forms and needs are deemed more essential than God’s Enjoy that’ll remain hidden to the amount you select the illusion.
All outside points (forms) are needs. Different labels are needs, dreams, status, problems, vomiting, individual enjoy (special relationships), gifts and targets nowadays, etc. They’re what you pick as replacements for God’s Love and the vanity will pose the goal of prayer by using them to further the illusion. Thus, prayer can’t be about “forms” or “needs” in virtually any way.